What is a core trauma and how to heal it?

Parts- In this context, we can look at a part like a container for trauma. The part is cut away from the rest of our being, holding in itself an unsolved emotional response state that plays out as a trigger when life events align the way the trauma happened or felt the very first time it was created. Remember the circumstances change but the dynamics of the situations stay the same. Same story keeps playing out until our own reaction to that is changed. I do not believe that parts are created because of the trauma. I believe all the parts are already there when we are born. It is part of our original blueprint. In its healed form all the parts function as one but when trauma is introduced the parts that are match to that particular trauma contain it into themselves, creating separation from that energetical singularity we started with. As a result there are less parts we govern with our free will. Less situations where we can access our free will. Traumatic events create this subconsciousness that depending on the severity of trauma can take over our body and its functions. We start reacting to the situations always in the same way since trauma dictates there is only one possible solution or no other way to get out of an intense situation. We get limited without even realizing it. We as a whole become the manifestation of that trauma. This trauma can be accessed by channeling the part and solving the energetical conflict in it. By doing that we change the automatic reaction in our nervous system. When working with the parts the main goal is to regulate our emotional system and the second goal is to create good mental connections of how this trauma plays out in our life right now. Thus giving us a guideline of what to change and how.

Thought patterns- These are the connections we have made over the years about the trauma. Sometimes they are built in a more conscious way. Some other time they are built upon responses of feeling in a curtain way when the trigger comes up. We feel afraid, angry or have some other kind of a response. Therefore we have learned to live our life in a way that we live avoiding negative feelings we feel. When the fragmentation level in this person is high then a whole life becomes an act of how to avoid triggers. It is shaped by it. The person then navigates around these emotional landmines, there is not that much flexibility left in them. It is hard for them to adjust to changing times or to a new job etc… Sometimes these people can be highly functional according to our society norms. They become good at work that resembles machine-like functioning or functioning without a moral compass. They seem to have singular focus and amazing productivity but from a deeper level they have built their life into a bubble reality that is put together in a way that they can avoid facing the trauma. This situation can also be highly unfunctional when the nature of this bubble reality does not include a way to make money or a functioning nervous system that can concentrate in a stable way. No matter the case this reality will pop sooner or later in their life. At which point it might be too late to make a change. Trauma has created strong thought patterns and emotions that will not adjust to changes meaning there is no way to go on with their life. They will exit the lifewave one way or another. I feel this also happens with most people as they age. They are stuck in their ways and life keeps changing around them. They lose their connection to reality. That means they have also lost their function and reason to be. One could say that they do not belong into this “now moment” anymore. They are stuck in the past and the body also starts to express that. Losing its flexibility and function to be present in the reality their physical body resides in.

Physical body- Our anatomy moves and breathes through all of these traumatic events we have experienced. It has its own memory. Once the trauma is activated in our emotional system it also expresses in the physical body. Body expresses the feelings in a subconscious way. Protecting itself if needed. Wanting to escape etc… In case of extreme trauma it is extremely beneficial to start to work on body level. Somatic experiencing is one of these tools accessible to us that allows direct access to traumas stored in the body. This type of trauma work does not require us to express on a mental level the feeling we might not even be able to relate or connect to at first. It is a powerful healing tool. Also the physical body can hold in itself physical trauma. Injuries, toxins, heavy metals, different poisons. That also activates our emotional body. For example toxins can activate anger and even if the anger itself was expressed and situation solved it will keep coming back because the toxins are still there. The toxins are the manifestation of the trauma and vice versa. Which means the trauma pattern(anger) only ends when the toxin that calls that forth also exits the body. All is connected and one breathes into existence another until all the ways the trauma has manifested is dealt with. The health of the physical body reflects our trauma. Once we are healing ourselves a special attention needs to be put into also healing the body to end the trauma cycle fully.

Environment- Everything outside of us is a match to what is inside of us in one form or another. Therefore noticing what is happening to us, where we live and how, is actually a good way to gain information about our traumas. A person who is highly codependent for example will have people around themselves who take advantage of that. A person who lives in an unsafe environment feels highly unsafe in themselves. Lack of safety has taken form outside of themselves. All these mirrors tell us a story. I would say that once we have shifted trauma inside of us we get presented by a sort of a manifestation that is like a “Graduation exam” a situation where we need to face the old pattern and make a different decision than in the past. This can be an act of saying no or choosing to step away from people who hurt us.

Food- This belongs under the “Environment” but it needs its own categorization for the reason that this is overlooked a lot. Especially in trauma work. As someone who senses energies really well I can say to you the food that we eat carries a big impact when it comes to the energies we run in ourselves every day. Food is a manifestation of energy like everything on a physical plane. It is like comparing steam to ice. They are fundamentally the same but with different qualities. Even though we might cleanse our food energetically it is really hard to do it in a way the food itself changes its structure, which can hold in itself trauma the same way we do. If we eat the meat of an animal who has been abused, then the meat holds in itself a trauma that says “I am a victim.” When we digest this food we take this trauma into ourselves and it becomes ours to transform. We become one with the meat and with the trauma it holds at the same time. This means that as we eat this food that is deeply connected to being a victim we end up feeling victims ourselves. Because energy in us starts to manifest our reality. Is this a burden you want to carry by letting it shape your reality? In this way by consuming food that has suffered while it was produced we also create more suffering to the animals. Of course the same could be said about consuming plants. They also experience death through trauma, but the truth is we have more in common with the nervous system of the animals than with the nervous system of plants. Therefore we process in our body the plant's energy in a different way that is not so impactful from a trauma perspective. It is more compatible with our nervous system.

Now that we have some of these basics down we can start to categorize traumas by type and look how we can work with them. I have divided traumas into three groups by the level of fragmentation that's happening in their energy body. The opposite of fragmentation is integration which means in essence that everything works as one organism, according to design and integrated together in a fully functional way. Fragmentation starts to create stops in the energy flow and information in it. The higher the fragmentation the more it loses its functionality.

Low fragmentation- Trauma mostly expresses itself in the emotional body and has a low impact on mental level and physical level. It does not shape a person's decision making in a major way. In other words strong thought patterns are not developed around it and belief systems connected to that are easy to change.

Healing journey- This type of trauma can be healed by mainly working with parts. Creating emotional alignment in ourselves. Going through that with awareness is enough to change the thought pattern. Alternatively we could just work on thought patterns and belief systems which would shift the trauma enough to manifest a healing experience that will align the emotional body with thought patterns. Every trauma working method that has a positive effect on the way a person thinks or feels can be beneficial here.

People who only have low fragmentation are exceedingly rare. This requires strong practices and knowledge that usually is not accessible in our day and age. Still they do exist.

Medium fragmentation- Trauma is always present in the emotional system. Nervous system is alway loaded up by internal splits. One part of us wants us to do something while the other part in us wants to do exactly the opposite. Both are expressed in our emotional system which puts us into a perpetual trigger state. This kind of an emotional response to our environment shapes our experience in a strong way. Over the years the mental level has developed strong belief systems connected to these reactions. Everyday decisions are decided taking into account the emotional responses. Therefore, it also shapes our environment and the people we keep around us or a lack of people around us.

Healing journey- This type of trauma needs working on everything. Parts, thought patterns, physical body. Changing where and how we live, the food we consume, the people we keep around us. There are also skills this person needs to learn. Their way of interacting. Relationship skills can be highly developed to fulfill their own needs (depending on the severity of trauma). Because there is a deep lack of meeting these basic needs. A good example is a narcissist or a codependent person. To come out of this trauma we need to relearn basic interaction between people. Reconnecting to our empathy in a different way. Setting new boundaries to ourselves and others to create the environment needed for healing. Pitfalls of healing from this type of trauma are most commonly unwillingness to make changes coupled with lack of available help and skills on how to make this change. Also this is a serious work that needs years and years of serious every day work. This type of trauma needs dedication and hard work to change but is fully possible.

Most of our population has medium fragmentation. Always having these splits activated in their system. In varying intensity of course. Usually people adjust to them by disconnecting. Becoming numb and focusing more on developing their logic and skills related to living a successful material life. Which is a good goal to have but would be much more productive if trauma work would also be part of that. If these splits are ignored they manifest as diseases that may have a potential to end their life.

High fragmentation- I would consider a high fragmentation to be a state where a person has lost a connection with their reality. Not temporarily but in a consistent way. They are living their lives in automatic way. Purely reacting to their environment in an instinctual level, according to what they're nervous system tells them to do. This could also look from outside like a total lack of consistency but inside energetically on a parts level it looks like a separate islands all having their own personal autonomy, memories, different access to past memories. Individual personalities that get expressed in a way that all the other parts (islands) that are not activated in the nervous system at that moment are not aware of each other. They experience severe mental problems. Have trouble making new memories and taking in new concepts. They sometimes can look like functional human beings but usually it's more of an illusion that will collapse sooner or later. These people end up being taken advantage of. Different mental institutions, medical procedures and medication.

Healing journey- Usually there is no coming back from that, but if they would get the care they need it would be possible. Unfortunately, this does not happen often. These people might be here for a while but in the end they exit the life wave as we all do. Some sooner, some later.

I would say about 5% of our population is taken up by these people who have high fragmentation levels. They are in a slow process of dying.  

Now coming back to this question of “What is a Core trauma?”.

Knowing all we know right now about the manifestation of trauma and how it relates to the original trauma, we could say that core trauma itself is the original impulse that shaped the emotional responses of a person. It is the trauma that has shaped our being the most. In other words, out of all the other traumas this is the most manifested one. We can see it all around us, the place we live, the people we choose to be together with, the decisions we make and in the end the feelings we feel. It started as a physical act which created an energy signature into the energy body that in turn started to create its own manifestations over the long years. The core trauma itself is what is most unmanifested, living in us only in energetical form but ironically it feels to us most real. If we manage to heal the core of a trauma we are working with, we gain the ability to change its manifestations. If we do not do that then the core trauma gets recreated in the energy body by what has already become a reality. Therefore the act of healing is an act of metamorphosis. A total change of who we are, where we are and why we are.